My Story

I am in a space of pure gratitude as I  embark on this journey of pursuing my ultimate passion.

This is a short insight of the road that I have travelled to get to this place in my life. 

My childhood years were happy and I felt truly blessed to have a loving family
and friendship circle. I believe that it was this emotional security that enabled
me to thrive in all I put my mind to at school; in both sport and academics. I
became a confident and competent teenager in high school and felt that my life
was complete. It was then that my world came crashing down and I was never
the same again. I was in my first year at University studying to be a teacher,
when I experienced my first major trauma. My father and my hero, committed
suicide. This tragedy pulled me down into a state of utter despair,
disillusionment and depression, which lasted many years and had devastating
consequences in every area of my life.

However, nobody would have guessed the desperate state I was in as I put a
smile on my face and went through the daily routines of life. But I struggled to
connect to life, as the pain went too deep. I suppressed all the negative
emotions of anger, pain and heartache, as I knew no other way to deal with
them. These unprocessed emotions were further entrenched when, on my return
from Cape Town after finishing my Teaching Degree at UCT, my mother was
murdered. My mom was the strongest and the most loving person I have ever
known and she was the spiritual rock in my life. Her horrific death catapulted
me into an even darker place in my soul. I made the decision to travel overseas
for two years to heal and to try and find some meaning in my life.

Unfortunately when one suppresses negative emotions they become repressed
and they then manifest in various ways in the body. I developed eating disorders
(to try and fill the pain, emptiness, abandonment and rejection I felt inside of

me) and on returning back to SA, I started my quest of going to different types
of therapists to seek the help I so desperately needed. It helped on a conscious
level but they never got to my sub-conscious mind which was programmed with
all these negative emotions and low self-esteem. My emotional state eventually
manifested into a dis-ease inside my body and I ended up with stage 1 colon
cancer at the age of 30 (I firmly believe that it was because of the past 12
years of a depressed state within my body, soul and spirit).

I decided to pursue the holistic route with my colon treatment and booked into
the Life Science Clinic, where I also started studying the power of the mind. My
healing journey of 25 years then began. Within a year I was healed from colon
cancer (with God of course, as I believe that He has given us the power to heal)
and I continued my journey of healing and restoration.
My marriage also had its share of challenges and heartache which led to a
divorce 2 years ago. It had its share of great joy and pain (as most marriages
do) and our 2 daughters (16 and 19) gave me the strength and the courage to
keep going. However, so much of my authentic self had been lost along the way
and I needed to find myself again and to live the life I yearned for.